Received 07/15/2006 03:22 from from echo <chosen_echo [at] yahoo [dot] com>

Eliminating Suicide As An Option Can Really Suck

... because then it's your birthday, you have some unknown illness, you feel horrible all around and you can't even get drunk. Oh, and you have to wait until it's your "time" to go, which is now out of your control. Offing yourself would hurt the people you love and those who love you. I cannot do that to my family. (for the millionth time friends are family, too.) Half an hour and my birthday is officially over. I slept through most of it. I feel bad about missing my friends and a midnight toast with Cloud, my cousin. I'll have to take him out tomorrow - the 15th is his birthday. I hope I feel better. I'll have to force myself to celebrate even if I'm still ill. I owe it to everyone, including myself.